So, I am still trying to figure out all that is new and crazy with me. I am feeling very sad still, probably because my old medication is only working at 1/2 tablet strength and I haven't got my new meds in me yet. My husband is really trying to cope with me and my craziness but he doesn't really know how.
At my Dr. visit the Dr. R. asked me who my support system is and I told him my husband and my family - that I don't want to talk to about this - "Do you have any friends?" he asked me and I replied "A few 1 or 2" That is sad in itself. So, I decided to call one of my oldest friends and tell him what is going on with me and he wouldn't talk to me. He has been having issues with his wife, because he contacted an old girlfriend, and somehow it is my fault that he is having problems and is taking it out on me in a bad way.
He text me back 2 hours after I called and was rude about it. I told him that I needed a friend at that "now wasn't a good time". (I was back home with my husband and kids and didn't really want to talk about the issue right then). And then he was a jerk to me. I am beginning to think that he isn't all that great of a friend.
Now what? I only have 3 friends in my life and now one of them is gone. I could probably have more friends if I would pick up the phone and call some of them. I am terrible at keeping in touch. I feel like I am imposing if I call someone - even if they are gracious and want to talk. I am a mess and really need some help!
So, on that note I am going to drink another cup of decaf (yuck!) coffee and then get on with my day.
Heaven
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